surfing.....surfing....surfing

hi..borrow laptop adik jie kiter jap...mlm ni dah nak balik umah dier kat kuala krai...so i'm lonely tonight until tomorow morning....plan nak lepak umah za sambil borak2 esok pagi...miss her sesangat...banyak jugak rasanyer benda yang nak diceritakan kat dier...kebetulan this weekend her husband not at home...so boleh la kitorang meronggeng jap...that evening lak nak pi amik my sister kat pengkalan chepa...ofis lak so far so good...hujung bulan ni, wanie dah berhenti, dier dapat keje kat tanah merah ...ok la tu...banyak sangat problem dier kekadang tu...hmmmxtau la, dier kata ari sabtu ni nak bagi surat resign...bos lak citer macam2 nak design itu la, ini lah (padahal org yang akan buat sume tu akan kluar xlama lagi, xtau la camner) ari isnin ngan selasa ni i'll be busy woman coz ader sesi temuduga untuk jawatan marketing executive...hope ader la sorang dua yang ader skill multimedia ni...sekurang2nyer xder la boss terasa sangat dengan kehilang wanie tu kan....ye la mesin nak sampai next week ni...nampak gaya kiter ngan en. am la yang akan handle mesin tu...

lastly...still here

lastly, i'm still here...no where places are suitable for me to go (confusing actually)...many forms i already take from government website and send it...so from now i must try so hard to get a best and great job that related with my qualification and my course that i take at university...too hard actually when i think about it...ye la technology was runnning so quickly, when i looked at myself, where am i, still here (xbergerak and berkembang...huhuhu) an example, now at my office nothing that i do related with my knowledge...hmmm juz make an invoice, do, salary, kwsp, typing company profile and some designs...not in programming...(dah lama rasanya tinggal benda tu semua) if i wanna do again maybe it take time to make me comfortable with that's thing....but, at least i get some knowledge about administration department tasks right...mana la tau, when the interview session, they ask me about that??? hmm at least i have an idea what i wanna going to do...so later not happen again i like a patung when interviewer ask me a question(rasa nak nangis pun ader ari tu, ye la xprepare langsung)...juz now i arrange the interview session at my office (juz the simple one)...normally wani yang arrange but today she cuti, accompany her mom operation...so bz two days....no workers anymore....yesterday i make mistake (xder la besar sangat), tp ye la dah petang (campur lak penat) bengang lak rasa....hmmm nak buat camner...tadi he ask me again about that, and i told already settle...hmmm so tired...ptg semalam pi dinner with my friend kat FOUR SEASON, then we go shopping at Billion...the end...that's all for this evening...see ya for the next session (huhuhu)

ku mahu

Sesaat ku terkesima pada indah personamu...Sekilas kau senyum padaku, ku larutkanmu dalam kasihku...Sesaat ku terpesona pada warna ceriamu...Sayangnya telah ku hidu semua paparanmu palsu...Indah impian cintaku namun realiti tak seharum yang ku impikan kerna cintamu tak sejati...Ku mahu kesetiaan dan kejujuran, kasih sayang yang tiada bersempadan, pengorbanan cinta yang tulus dan lahir dari keikhlasan...Namun kau hanya mampu memberi janji palsu yang ditabur terdorong hawa nafsu...Semua yang kau beri tak bernadi dan tak kan menjadi erti...Selamanya takkan ku lupa, kau ajar ku seksa, kau pandai berkata-kata hingga aku derita...Selamanya ku berjaga-jaga, tak sanggup ku terkena, cukuplah sekali terluka, kan ku ingat sentiasa...Aku bukanlah boneka mu, ku tak rela dipermainkan, lebih baik sendiri dari terseksa di tangan mu...Apa yang aku mahu????